I'M AT BLOGGING FROM BANGKOK NOW!

I have done quite a lot of shopping at Platinum Fashion Mall. It's this mega shopping centre that reminds me of Far East Plaza except that it's a much upsized version of it and it doesn't look so sloppy! I've been really active on Twitter 'cos my mum subscribed to international data roaming! HAHA. Lucky me, isn't it? It's Thai traditional new year now. They called it Songkran! People splash water on each other and apply powder on each other faces as a form of blessing. They CAN get really crazy. But we've no time to go to the specific districts to play! Maybe next time! :)

This week of block leave coupled with this short getaway to Bangkok doesn't seem as much of a benefit to me as I thought it would be. I know I'm retarded but I find it really hard to move on. Nah, I ain't being an emo boy here. They're merely personal thoughts and reflections.

NS probably made me more matured in thoughts but my sentiments still stay. Whenever I log into facebook, I see news feed about her happenings and status updates. Even if I wanna forget about her, it's too hard to move on with all these. Whenever I idle around, I look at the photos on my iPod, I see us - how happy and sad we were. They are the memories that I wanna relive. Indeed, many would reprimand me and ask me to be forward-looking. The truth is, I've tried. I'm trying so hard every single day. She just fill my mind so easily whenever I'm conscious.

Learning that there are guys who're interested in her, I just feel as if there is a hole in my heart. I always hope that I would see a text from her whenever I look at my phone. WhenI see a reply from Twitter, I would smile and reply back, hoping to see a reply from her again. Gee, I feel really retarded. This path seems really tough but I guess I've to pull through no matter what. I still hope there's a point of return for the both of us even though I know there's no hope.

On a lighter note, I'm really glad I still have my friends and family to support me during this period. It's really heartwarming. I wouldn't know how I could come thus far without them. <3